A dream is a wish your heart makes…

to that “someone” in my dream, who promised to be honest…

I’d rather not talk anymore, coz if I do, I’ll just hear some things that I don’t want to hear, or I’ll just expect some things that will not come.

I’d rather not think of memories that never happened in reality, coz if I do, I’ll be forever living in a dream that will not happen.

I’d rather keep my feelings to myself, coz if I don’t, it will only make that someone feel bad. I’d rather stop complaining about the things I don’t understand, coz I’m sure that someone is sick and tired of making a stand.

I’d rather stop demanding, the things that are impossible to have. I’d rather be alone and be slain, than to be with that someone and feel that rushing pain.

I keep telling myself: "I understand…", of course, I really do, but I don’t know if deep inside, that someone understands me too.

I tell things that make me happy, while that someone tells me things that makes life sad. That someone worries about me if I’m silent, but when I’m the one whose worried I feel like I’m being tormented.

I’ve been a burden to that someone for so long, and I feel that my presence only makes things worse. Before I met that someone, my life was nothing but normal. But before that someone met me, life was as peaceful as a seagull.

So I decided: "I’d rather stop this connection between us, coz it will be for our own good. I should make that someone’s life like before…life without me, life without pressure."

I guess it is better for me to leave now, and say to that someone: "goodbye", it is better than to just fall into silence… it is better than not to tell why…

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